The closer I become to God
My life is evermore strange, weird
My brain, my mind filling with ancient knowledge
Filtering out delusional hopes, dreams and fantasies
Just left with the raw truth of reality!
I am a non-playable character
Nowhere to run or hide
Nowhere to go?
Except deep inside my head…
Stuck on a gyroscope of reinvention
Watching the rain through my window
Wondering what tomorrow will bring
I love my life, with all it’s madness
Deep pain, even deeper sorrow
Emotions that verify my existence
Crying tears of blood…
Night-time brings the curtain down
I retire from the stage
To drink tea
With the caretaker of my spirit
Who critiques my performance
Speaking softly but true
I always fall in love so easily deeply
Yet so foolishly…..
Oh! God why did you choose me?
A laboratory rat amongst millions
Truly I am so glad you did
For I love you so!
Even though I don’t understand your ways
You remain my one true friend
Your love – Your grace
Like waves smashing against
The rocks of my soul
Slowly but slowly
Reducing me into dust….
Urban Dandy 
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